Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The Last Day of the Year


So as we all new today is new year's eve and I am kind of ready for the new year. There are some things that happened in 2008 that I wish had not happened but after tonight I will no longer dwell on them. In this new year I will work hard to make some changes and better myself...after all you are supposed to have some sort of growth every year and it seems like I did not grow any from 2007 to 2008. I will not make any resolutions because they are like promises...they are meant to be broken, I will not make any announcements about how I plan to grow because I am only changing for myself so I do not need to alert anyone, and I will not make any ridiculous demands of my body because that is just not me and even if I do not like it someone will. The new year will be just that a new year, it is a chance for you to start over or continue on the path that you have chosen; I will not be starting over or continuing on the same path but a combination of the two.

This year I hope to find a new love as it has betrayed me before, something that I am not proud of but something that was ultimately inevitable. I will not search for it, I will not beg for it, nor will I plead for it but I will pray for it because that is all I can do. All of the beaus from 2008 will not be replaced but removed as there will be no one there to pick up where they left off or to arouse a new fling in its entirety. When and if love is found it will be respected an cherished as a Carrie Bradshaw (Sex and The City) cherishes a pair of Manolo Blahnik "Mary Janes", this love will be like a breath of fresh air...it will allow me to be myself and allow my suitor to explore every iota of my being. It will be darling and much appreciated.

Enough about love...since tonight is THE biggest night of the year I will be attending LOVE the nightclub here in Washington, DC with my girls, I know I will probably wear this black knit dress with two pockets in the front...it's very cute and chic. The weather here is awful, it's very windy and little chilly but the wind makes it seem colder than it is...so I wanted to wear peep toes but I am actually second guessing that right now and thinking about another option. My other option is a pump but it has studs on it and I don't really like them a whole lot, they look better with jeans or better yet they look better with pants in general. I'm so confused...I will probably end up in ankle boots; but tonight will be the night and that is all that matters. I hope every has a happy new year and I will be back in 2009.

*MUAH*

Monday, December 29, 2008

My First...


Welcome to my blog!!! This is my first entry so I decided to discuss myself (my back round, what my blog will pertain to, things that interest me and things that I despise.

I am a 21 year old college graduate that lives in Maryland on the outskirts of Washington,DC (the nation's capital). Fall 2005 I moved to Chicago and attended IADT(International Academy of Design and Technology) where my major was Fashion Design and I just recently moved back to the DMV (DC, Maryland, Virginia) area in September. Since graduating and moving back home I have not been very active in ANYTHING, I left my designing alone, I have a part-time job but I only work maybe one day a week so a majority of my week is spent at home or running errands for others. I thought that once I moved back home I would have a decent job (being that I am a college graduate) and I would be able to work on developing my line in the evenings and on the weekends but finding a decent job has been a hell of a task and after going through these past three months I'm beginning to think that maybe college was not the best idea. All of the job offers I have received have been in retail making roughly minimum wage which I believe is unacceptable for someone my age and with my educational back round so I am hanging on to my current part time job.

Being that the whole working for someone else for little to no money is not working for me I have been feeling like a slacker which is not a very good feeling, I mean I have been sitting at home for the past two weeks making little or no progress...the only positive is that I have been able to clean up and organize and I have had a chance to think. So this morning...well yesterday morning (Sunday) I got up and attended church with my mother, the topic was "There is a light at the end of the tunnel!" and as soon as I heard the message I knew there was a reason that I got of bed this morning, I needed to hear this sermon. Before attending the service God had been talking to me and leading me in the direction of creating my own line but he had not gave me the okay until this morning in church...that was when God blessed me with the okay. Now I see that these first three months were preparing me for long road that I have ahead of me but I am ready to endure all that I have to in order to get where I would like to be and establish a career for myself.

Whenever I am out and about I make it my business to observe every one's attire because I am from a area of the country where everyone wears whatever is in style or is current but the trends in our area are usually different from other parts of the country. For example we have a lot of urban designers in the area so that is what is considered stylish for us, you will not see a lot of people wearing Rocawear, Guess, Baby Phat, or FUBU...it is just not considered fashionable. The select few that do don these brands are considered "bammas"(it is a slang term from the area used to describe someone that has no style, taste, or class). So like I said I usually check out every one's outfit not only to see what they are wearing but to see how they are wearing it and to see if someone is wearing anything that I would consider high end...I don't do this to be judgmental or shallow but to see if anyone keeps up with the latest designers and trends as I attempt to. A lot of times in doing my once overs I notice outfits and accessories that really catch my attention which is good because that means that the wearer set out to get attention, put some thought into their outfit, or has an exceptional sense of style which is good. Then there are others who I see during my once over and they have either over done the outfit so it looks like they tried too hard or they tried to be innovative and wear the article of clothing in a manner other than what it was intended for which is not all entirely bad sometimes...but it can be.

Now I know what you are thinking..."Since she looking at everybody else outfit she better be fly (area slang)...let me be the first to tell you that I am not, at least I don't think so. My take on my personal style is that I know how to dress depending on what reaction I am going for, example: if I am going to a club and I want to meet a lot of potentials (men) then I know I am going to have to be breathtaking which means I have to hit them where it hurts. I know that men are attracted to different parts on the female body such as lips, eyes, legs, breasts, butts, long hair, pretty face, stomachs (usually flat ones), hands (soft ones) and feet...I know of the ten most desired features I have seven to six (depending on who you ask) so those are the features that I will play up. So to complete my example I want to be breath taking and I know I have bigger breasts and nice long thick longs so I will wear a shirt dress with a deep scoop neck and pumps so I can add an extra four inches to my six foot frame. This way my best assets are highlighted and I am tall enough that when I enter my destination everyone will be able to see me.

I am not fly just merely stylish and fashionable in my own way which I believe is the best way to be, when you wear things that are trendy and very popular you run a very high risk of looking like a lot of people or going some where and running into someone with the same outfit as you. The people that I consider the most stylish are the ones who do not shop where everyone else does, the ones who can get dressed so effortlessly but yet it looks as thought they spent hours upon hours scouring their closet looking for something to wear. They own designer labels but are never covered in designer labels from head to toe and they never wear any labels that scream the creators name, they know that simple outfits should be matched with expensive shoes and accessories and vice versa. Stylish people know that the items that you should never skimp are shoes, bags, and coats or jackets, they appreciate appreciate sales and outlet stores (Off 5Th Saks, Neiman Marcus Last Call, and Nordstrom Rack) and they appreciate consignment shops and thrift stores.

Well that is enough about me and my perception of style for right now...comeback later on today to see what I am raving about.